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semua hal harus dimulai....
bahkan ketika kamu tidak tahu apa yang harus dilakukan....
karena bukannya kita smua memulai dari ketidaktahuan pada awalnya...

aku hanya sedang membayangkan seorang bayi yang baru lahir dengan segala ketidak tahuanya....
dibohongi oleh orang tuanya sendiri yang mengatakan "dunia itu indah"
dan bayi itu belajar dari segala yang ia lihat, belajar dari  semua kebiasaan yang terlihat olehnya, dengan batasan batasan agar dapat diterima oleh dunia...

apakah dunia tidak mau menerima orang2 yang berada diluat batas itu...?
lalu kenapa mereka membohongiku dan membagi ketakutam mereka kepadaku....
apa hidup begitu penting sehingga mereka membohongiku untuk dapat hidup....

aku benci dengan semua yang bergerak kekanan, seperti detik-detik yang merenggut semua hal disaat aku tidak tahu.
aku senang menjadi tidak tahu, karena aku tidak harus melihat hal yang tidak ingin aku lihat....

tapi aku tahu bahwa semuan hal harus dimulai
bahkan ketika aku tidak tahu apa yang harus aku dilakukan....

 So I'm waiting for this test to end
So these lighter days can soon begin
I'll be alone but maybe more carefree
Like a kite that floats so effortlessly
I was afraid to be alone
Now I'm scared thats how I'd like to be
All these faces none the same
How can there be so many personalities
So many lifeless empty hands
So many hearts in great demand
And now my sorrow seems so far away
Until I'm taken by these bolts of pain
But I turn them off and tuck them away
'till these rainy days that make them stay
And then I'll cry so hard to these sad songs
And the words still ring, once here now gone
And they echo through my head everyday
And I dont think they'll ever go away
Just like thinking of your childhood home
But we cant go back we're on our own
So were speeding towards that time of year
To the day that marks that you're not here
And i think I'll want to be alone
So please understand if I dont answer the phone
I'll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls
Until I can see nothing at all
Only particles some fast some slow
All my eyes can see is all I know

But I'm about to give this one more shot
And find it in myself
I'll find it in myself

again and again yesterday appeared in my head
when flashing lights always in my eyes
everybody come and go
cry, laugh, speak about right
but i don't care

they think they know..?
they don't even care
they just want to hear
without listen

and speaking
without talking....

haha...
life it's such a funny thing...

again and again yesterday appeared in my head
when flashing lights always in my eyes
everybody come and go
cry, laugh, speak about right
but i still don't care


cos they don't know
they will never know
and so am i.....

there is a power betwen truth and lies

Silence is easy

Everybody says that their looking for a shelter,
Got a lot to give but I don't know how to help her,
I should just let it go
till they learn how to grow,
And how to liberate.

Everybody says that I'm looking for a home now,
Looking for a boy or I'm looking for a girl now,
I can still let it go,
I can still learn to grow,
Into a child again.

Silence is easy, it just becomes me,
You don't even know me, you all lie about me.
and why do you hate me.